http://www.mindfuliterations.com/articles/2008/01/28/growth-is-good-sometimes en-us 40 I'm just a girl, standing in front of some code, asking it to compile. <p>Growth feels good.&nbsp; Sometimes.&nbsp; Not always.</p><p>When one&#39;s ass grows, it doesn&#39;t feel good.&nbsp; Personal growth is sometimes painful.&nbsp; But growth when it comes to <em>learning, knowledge, and understanding</em>, though like personal growth can be painful, it can also feel really damn good.</p><p>Today my entire day was spent refactoring, testing, and working with Capistrano.&nbsp; I also had a nice discussion about has_and_belongs_to_many and has_many through...&nbsp; I didn&#39;t have one moment where I was drowning in confusion, or where I wanted to hang up the computer and invest in a hot dog cart as a new line of business.&nbsp; No, I don&#39;t have those hot dog cart days very often, but every once in a while, they come up.</p><p>In any case, today was lovely.&nbsp; Yes, <em>lovely</em>,&nbsp; I feel like I&#39;m getting a lot more comfortable with developing, reading code and understanding what I&#39;m reading... It&#39;s a great feeling.&nbsp; To wax poetic, it feels like I&#39;ve been walking around with blinders on, and slowly but surely, they are falling away.&nbsp; I&#39;m beginning to see more things. &nbsp;</p><p>And now, I raise my glass of Diet Cherry Coca-Cola and make a toast - to growth - the painful and the comfortable. Because if I&#39;m learning, I&#39;m growing, and if I&#39;m growing, I&#39;m happy (as long as it&#39;s not my ass that&#39;s doing the growing).</p> Mon, 28 Jan 2008 19:48:00 -0600 urn:uuid:9fcf2bf0-2f6f-407c-b900-01b5cbd416f9 samantha http://www.mindfuliterations.com/articles/2008/01/28/growth-is-good-sometimes betterness programming rails capistrano growth http://www.mindfuliterations.com/articles/trackback/156