I Did Had a Stoopid Day

samantha — Tue, 15 Jan 2008 17:52:00 -0600

My logic hurts.

Do you ever have one of those days where you end up feeling as though your capacity to learn anything is completely fucked? I had one of those days today. Okay, not the entire day, but a couple of hours.

It started out as a productive day - I was strolling through commit logs and code. I even narrowed down the culprit on an issue that I have been fighting with for ~~days~~ weeks. I sat with a huge grin on my face, a product of figuring baffling stuff out. It was lovely.

And then it happened. As I looked through jQuery code, javascript, and Ruby, my brain started to melt. My eyes glazed over and all of a sudden, I felt as though I had the IQ of a guitar pick (or a wooden ruler, I haven't quite decided yet).

I went through a few jQuery tutorials, thinking that it was my own 'fear of the unknown' that kept me from grasping that which I needed to wrap my skull around. After a couple of hours spent back and forth between reading docs, reading code, and drooling uncontrollably, I finally felt the lightbulb turn back on. Yay, lightbulb!

Of course, by that time, the day was over. So, I stuck around a few extra minutes, quickly wrote all of my thoughts down as to make sure they didn't leave or that my stoopidety didn't return. Tomorrow I'll get back into the grind and try again.

See, I'm one of those people who have always had an incredibly easy time learning things, especially when it's of a technological nature. I picked up a great deal of Linux commands watching over a friend's shoulder eight (8) years ago. When I can't learn something really damn fast, I get really impatient. So, hopefully tomorrow I can approach this with a fresh mind and a new surplus of patience.

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